I had a dream a few nights ago that I thought was pretty cool.

Matthew and I were driving to Lubbock, and Matthew says to me, "Grady asked me to call to let him know whether I found it or not." So he whips out his phone and calls Grady. Now the details are a little fuzzy so bear with me. We get to my grandparent's house and my grandmother was on the porch waving to us, as she usually would do. We entered the house and there he was, sitting in his chair in those same khaki colored pants and red and blue flannel shirt he always wore. "It's in the truck, I found it at Home Depot," Matthew says to him. Grady gets up out of his chair and says, "Come on back here Matthew, let me show you something." And off they went to his office.

That's really all I can remember. When he was alive, it wasn't unusual for my Grandfather to take strangers to his office to show off his collection of inventions or to play his guitar for them. It was just his thing. When I woke up I couldn't help but feel a little disappointed. It really breaks my heart that he and Matthew didn't get to meet.

Matthew reminds me of my him in so many ways. Every story told never misses a detail, blue eyes, the way he laughs sometimes, working in the garage.

I dream of Granny and Papoo pretty often, more often since Grandma died. A few weeks after Granny died, I had a dream that she was standing on the porch waving to me and I could hear her say, "Jessie, I'm all right now, I'm all right honey. Don't you go to cryin'." And of course when I woke up I was crying. When Matthew and I visited her for the last time in July, she said those exact things to me when we were discussing her cancer. Of course, I began to cry (I cry alot, can you tell?) and she said,"Now honey, it's all right! I'm all right!" That's nothing compared to how I reacted when my aunt called and told me that she had been diagnosed. I completely lost it. Cancer had taken Papoo, and now my Granny? It just couldn't be possible. She was handling it so well too, she had come through chemo very well.

I miss them both terribly.